We live in the age of ignorance. The era, where men use their intellectual and physical prowess to rape women, and commit murders. The lawyers work their asses off to defend these men and the court declares them “not guilty” in the light of all the evidences. The age, where murderers and, the rapists are allowed to roam freely without facing any consequences for their crimes.
I am hania, and I am writing this incident with all the courage I could summon after a decade of silence. I was six years old when I was traumatized. My father died in 2005, after which my mother went into her “iddat” period. She allowed my sister and her husband to keep me for a few days. My sister hesitated, saying I would not feel comfortable at her house, maybe because she knew what awaited me there. Her husband Kashif was very persuasive and so my mother allowed me to stay with them.
As I arrived to their home, Kashif asked me to drink a malodorous fluid. It made me somnolent and I felt dizzy soon after consuming the drink, but I was still aware of my surroundings. I saw Kashif struck my sister with a wooden chair while she agonized in pain. He forced me into the room and locked after him. He stripped me and tied my hands tightly. I was flabbergasted and cried hysterically but he continued his sin without responding to my pleads. He forcefully raped me and caused me excruciating pain. I bled, I screamed and I cried while he raped me. Once he attained the orgasm, he untied me. I was in a state of semi consciousness, but the pain was real. I was screaming in agitation so he forced a knife into my eye and gouged it out. I failed to tolerate the pain and fainted.
I was locked in a room where he used to rape me followed by my sister who cleaned the mess and fed me. This went on for a week or so, sometimes he raped me three times a day. Two weeks later my mother arrived and was horrified by my condition, she immediately took me for a check-up. They told my mother that I had been subjected to sexual abuse and my uterus has been completely damaged. She filed an FIR against Kashif and my sister filed for divorce. In the judgment, the court cited that the prosecution was not able to prove the accused guilty of having perpetrated the offence, since I was unable to identify Kashif who had a beard but came clean-shaved in the court. They let my rapist go.
I live with the prospects of never getting married and starting my own family due to the fact that I cannot conceive children and have a false eye. On the other hand, the man who is responsible for my afflictions roam freely. This world is a bitter place. Here the guilty is defended and the oppressed is harassed and tormented. These men- the rapists and the murderers- live among us. They face no charges, no consequences and no punishment for their heinous sins. They do not care whose uterus they are penetrating as long as they achieve their orgasms. For them a child of three and a woman of seventy are the same. To them we are just “walking holes” for their pleasure.
But remember there will come a day when you will face Allah Almighty. On that day, I will see you burn in the deepest trenches of inferno In-sha-Allah. I will get my justice and you will get yours. You can go away with your vulgar activities in here but your gimmicks won’t work on Allah.
Finally, for those who blame women for provoking men by dressing inappropriately and being out late at night, tell me exactly how could I have provoked my brother-in-law who raped me when I was just six years old at my sister’s house while she watched?
Note: this is based on a true incident occurred in 2005 in Karachi, the victim’s age was in reality 3 years old.